Dreaming Like a Nova

i folded a thousand paper cranes
looking for fairies whenever it rains
catching the stars shooting from heaven
checking the clock for 11:11
eyelashes between my fingers i press
cracking a wishbone with no success
birthday candles out, all in one blow
ladybug’s trust and firefly’s glow
dandelions…

“I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because I like boys. I’m annoying because I’m not…

i freaked out when you stopped talking
and i couldnt calm myself down when you left me.
then you werent there and i felt alone
and when there was no response from anything, i cried.
when proof surfaced you were there for others, i felt betrayed.

so i tried again

still, nothing. people started to…